Tuesday, October 31, 2006


So I have been thinking about Halloween as today is the day of sending our children out on the street to do everything that we normally tell them not to do....

Oh I know most of us take our kids around to do their trick-or-treating, but what are we telling them...

"Ok just for today its ok to go to a strange house and knock on the door"

But lets not stop there.

"It is also ok to do what I tell you everyday NOT to do...its Ok to talk to strangers"

Then to top it all off we go one step further...

"Go ahead and ask that complete stranger that you just knocked on their door and talked to for some candy"

I know, I know its a tradition....you go door to door and get treats from the neighbors.

There was a time when everyone on the block knew each other so you would see kids that you saw everyday and those kids would not go to "scary ol' Mr Jones'" house on the hill because that was the only neighbor that no one really knew because he kept to himself.

But all that has changed now. Now there are times that we never get to know your next door neighbor, let alone the whole block. How about years ago when my cousins neighbor ended up killing his wife after we had spent years trick-or-treating at their house. Or about the neighborhood friend I had that still lives up the street who broke into my house and sprayed me with pepper spray.


Friday, October 27, 2006

Wash your hands

Is it really that hard of concept to think that you can take a minute..even 30 seconds to wash your hands after using the rest room.

EVERYDAY.....really EVERYDAY when I go to the restroom at work there is another woman that seems to use the restroom at the same time as me and she leaves her stall before I finish and guess what...SHE DOES NOT wash her hands.

REALLY whats up with that.....



Thursday, October 26, 2006

The new one..

Office politics are so funny...I really don't like to be part of it all but sometimes you just can't help it.

I have my new office. I have been in there for almost 2 months now. IT IS WONDERFUL. I love it. Not that I really had anything to complain about before. There is just a feeling of belonging now that I didn't even realize was missing before. Now I really feel like I belong and have settled in a really great job.

My office is slightly larger than that others in the vicinity. That fact was an issue as the office was being built. Now its built and everything calmed down...now the issue is heating....My office is warmer than any of the others on the floor. Actually is suits me perfectly....others are cold. Something is actually broken but they are not sure what yet. Everyday I have someone come in and go on and on about how warm my office is...Its either too warm for them or its just too cold outside of my office.

Owell I guess I have to get used to the fact that me and my office are a topic of conversation and controversy...Owell I am happy 8)

Saturday, October 21, 2006

This is where it all happens

Ok Alan here goes... Here is my blogging station....kind of....I generally do that on my laptop also shown below...

Not sure what happens. I am not as "artistic" as I would like to be...but then thats ok. I am me and me is a pretty darn good person to be 8)

And Yes I let Steve do the decorating.
I hope you all have a wonderful week and weekend

Thursday, October 19, 2006


So what about these words do people not understand?

When I see a speed limit sign that says school zone.... and the posted limit when kids are around is 20 miles per hour...I get it, it makes sense to me...go slow..watch for kids and other people walking.

...Some say well gee..hmmmm I wonder what that means.
...Some people seem to think it means:
...Oh this person is going way to slow..I will just hope the people waiting to turn into the school will move as I swing around this person and continue on my normal 4o mph..who cares that I just got a ticket for speeding...
...Oh I am late for work who cares if there are kids everywhere I will still drive my normal 40 mph....
the good one is when they do a U turn right in the schools driveway, oh that crossing gard and those kids at the corner will get out of the way as I jump the curb to finish my turn...

I mean really this is just crazy. I don't get why everyone has to be in such a hurry all the time. Your late..get over it...its not worth risking someone's life over. Life will go on.....late or not.....

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

One time...

*** I am not advocating any of the behavior stated below...just sharing some stories
***Also nothing really interesting here...

We went on a family vacation. My sister was 4 and I was 7...we went to the ocean.

One day we were on the beach and my sister was playing in the water in her little red bikini...she runs out and up to my mom and says "mom I have to go pee pee"...

mom says "its ok just go in the water"

my sister "ok "

she runs back to the water...drops her bikini bottoms, squats and pees right there...

Fast forward several years...to a few of years ago while we were up visiting from Arizona

We were camping and at our property we have an outhouse in the middle of the woods.......
My cousins son who is the same age as Steve had to go #2.....

He stands outside the outhouse door...strips down to his birthday suit and yells

"MOM I have to go POOP"

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

You think you have friends....

About a month before I turned 22 I was the victim of a crime. I guess one would call it semi violent.....here goes...

I was living in a house with a roommate, her young daughter, and then we had another guy roommate. The house we lived in had 3 normal bedrooms and then the garage that had been turned into a 4th bedroom.

On this particular night, my roommate was out, her daughter was at her dads, and the guy roommate was recovering from a broken jaw in his garage bedroom.

I had been out at a bar. I came home around 2am after the bar closed. I made myself something to eat and then I went to bed at about 2:30.

There were at least 2 cars in the driveway. I left the porch light on for my roommate and I even left a lamp on in the living room.

At about 3 am I woke up, hearing something...but you know when you hear something and your not sure what it was...so you sit up and listen....the next thing I know my bedroom door gets kicked in and I get a spray in my face.....it was pepper spray.....

I sat there screaming....face burning....I tried to dial 911 but I could not get the right buttons.

I could not see. I ran out of my room...not know what I would run into....thankfully no one was there. I ran into my roommates garage room....I ran back into my and finally got 911....

The police and medics came. The blew out our house with high powered fans....and washed my face with the garden hose. I was told that I should go to emergency and get my eyes checked. They left.

The police said it was random....but I never did buy that line of bull. Who breaks down a front door just to mace someone.

I have never felt really safe in my own home ever since.......It is much better than it was....but there is always something there.

Years later I heard rumors about who and why it happened. This guy Jack 'paid' this other guy John to do it because when I was 17 I slapped him........I had reasons that were not great....but they were reasons. I had known Jack and I guess I humiliated him and he held a grudge for 4 years. John was someone I had known for 14 years....someone that I had had a crush on when we were in junior high, had gone out with my best friend in high school....someone that at times was like a brother.....

Drugs do nasty things to people......Stay away from them...stay far, far away.


Ok Hormones are for the birds...the birds and the bees I guess. Whatever but I really don't like their complexity or what they have done to me.

The GOOD news is that I have felt pretty darn GOOD that last couple of weeks. I keep kind of waiting for the next shoe to drop and for me to wake up not liking myself again. So far so good.

I wish it could be something you could turn on when you need it...you know like when you are going to have a baby the hormones play some sort of roll there but then you go through years and years of dealing with their decision to reek havoc on your life and there are no more babies destined to come from you. They are just there acting as if you still NEED them...but you don't. Personally I can do without them. I know I needed them when I was having Steve and all that is good and great..but now I really just want them to go away and leave me alone. Really is that too much to ask. Yeah, I know...of course it is too much to ask.

Anyway....I am by definition not old enough to be going through menopause but then again there are no rules written to say what the real age is.....it just happens when it happens. I am not saying that is what is happening here, who knows what is really happening or why...I have seen a naturopath doctor and am currently working on what she has suggested. She says that its just my body finally adjusting to the stress of my marriage and the stress of the split and restarting my life. This last year things have finally settled down....and now my body is falling apart...almost literally....ok no really.

Anyway I hope you are all doing well...I am doing better!!!