Sunday, February 11, 2007

Good time was had by all...

Went to the party and had a good time.

It was weird to be with them all again. I love that family. Each and every one of them. I saw his family, including his dad. His dad wants me to bring Steve by for a visit. We all talked about old times and the memories of the good times we had. It was nice. I miss them all.

He was there with his new wife as well. His cousin said to me...
"Are you going to be ok when they get here"
I said "oh yeah, Im fine with it. All I want for him is happiness"
She said "She looks just like you" (she kept saying it all night)

She doesn't look that much like me....well sorta. They look happy. Still deep into their "first" year of marriage. The honeymoon has not ended, and that is good for them. I am truly happy for him and only wish him the best, a lifetime of happiness. I hope that his dreams come true. When I think of him all I feel is love. No resentment, not anger, not loathing...just love. I feel for him what I don't for my ex........Its so weird. He introduced me to his wife and explained how I used to work with his sister and we all used to hang out. I was his cousins roommate etc, etc...the other details don't matter so they are best to be left out. She is from out of town so she doesn't know the history and there is no need to let her hear all the gory details. I have to admit it was hard to look into his eyes.....we shook hands as I left. He and I will always be a mystery to me....I guess some things are never answered.

The slightly uncomfortable times aside I had a great time. It was fun reminiscing with my old friends. I don't think there were hard feelings left over from before. Life just moves on when you go away...people change, everything changes. I probably wont ever send what I wrote but I felt better just getting it off my shoulders. Letting go of my own guilt.

The one friend who invited me wants me to go out with her and a couple of her cousins next weekend. Steve would stay at her house with her kids and her husband. They take turns once in awhile going out. Maybe I will go.....it would be fun. Steve and I would stay the night at their house. Steve would love to hang out with her kids. I love that family!! I was in their wedding years ago and I was at the hospital when their first son was born almost 13 years ago.

It was good. Memories .........

2 Comments:

Blogger JD's Rose said...

I am so glad that you went...

xxx

11:22 PM  
Blogger Meow said...

Just dropping by to wish you a Happy Valentines Day.
Take care, Meow

1:01 AM  

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