Friday, June 16, 2006

Sometimes the people I love just PISS ME OFF

WARNING>>>>>> This is one of my less than famous rants...so feel free to click on by

Right now it is my sister.....

My situation is one where I am a single mom and I DO NOT expect anything from anyone. I take care of my own child. Sometimes I need some help with a pick up or something like that. It doesn't happen often and I could work around it...I hate even asking for that kind of help but I get told that I should so...I do when I need it.

In the last year my family has said that I need to get out without my son some.....so I have taken them up on their offer to help me do that by watching my son.....I have taken advantage of this offer no more than once a month. So since I stared that in January ....I have been out without my son 6 times..... The entire year before that I think I went out 3 times.

My sister is younger than me. We are different and have never been real close but we get along. She and I are just different. My best friend in my cousin, hers is a girl she went to high school with. I see my cousin maybe once a month....she sees her best friend almost everyday since they commute and work together.

She has blown me off more than once on things I have wanted to do with her...even spend time together every week.....to walk and share meals etc......she is always too busy with her friend. K fine.

My parents like to go out to the casino on Saturday nights and I feel guilty asking them to stay home to watch Steve for me when I go out. One time I could tell my mom did not want to do it..but she reluctantly said they would stay home if I did not have any other options. I had already asked my sister since I could tell this was what was going on. This occurred the first time I went out with my new single mom friend. The whole reason I looked for a single parents group was to get out and about with new people who were like me. I was going to ask my sister to come out with us..but since I did not have another option and she had offered before to watch Steve so I could go out...well it made sense...she could hang out with her nephew. In this time period she has babysat with Steve twice. Both times while I went out with my single mom friend.

So last weekend my mom out of the blue said that her and my dad were staying home and would be available to baby sit. I really did not have plans and my mom asked why I did not call my sister...and I said I did not feel like it because she blows me off. I should have kept my big mouth shut....mom talked to my sister and said that I had my feelings hurt...well yeah I have had them hurt by her alot...I just deal with it and stop expecting different. But my mistake was even letting it slip out to my mom.

Mom told my sister and my sister called Steve and I this week...pitty call I guess, to go watch a movie with her. We saw cars...it was good but long. When I talked to my mom tonight she said that she had a talk to with my sister...basically my sister is jealous of my friendship with my cousin and upset that I have gone out with my single mom friend without her.....

Well gee......I am not asking my mom to baby sit anymore and I am not asking my sister to baby sit anymore, (I know over reaction...its just how I feel right now). I don't want to be a burden to anyone, I don't want to ask someone else to take my responsibilities....I am sorry she does not take care of herself and lives her life through her friend...I have tried to include her in my life and she blows me off and finds more important things to do. She hangs out with her friend and her friends kids...the only way I can get her to do that with her nephew is to ask her to baby sit.

I am so irritated with it all. Me going out more was their idea to begin with...Who else do they expect me to get to watch Steve. Last year when he was gone to his dads she was not around...she was too tired to go out and about with me...she knew I was lonely and sad and should have been doing things but she was too busy with her own life. Now she is upset because I have a friendship with my cousin and have not stayed home waiting for her to find time for me......UGGGG

6 Comments:

Blogger JD's Rose said...

You are so not one of those single mums that shit me to tears. You are a great mum to Steve, and I think that you should be able to have some time to yourself. You are going to be no good to your son, if you do not look after you too.

Maybe it is a good thing that your sister knows... maybe?

It will all blow over.

xxx

9:31 PM  
Blogger Michelle said...

There's a reason "families" begin with "F" !!

2:43 AM  
Blogger Sometimes Saintly Nick said...

I rather tend to agree with Michelle. When people talked about families and say that “blood is thicker than water,” that’s probably true. However, one can just as easily drown in a lake of blood as a lake of water.

6:33 PM  
Blogger Clare said...

I hope you can find a way to sort this out and still manage to get out once in a while. I'm not sure your sister really has a right to be jealous when you've invited her out a on a number of occasions and she blew you off. I hope you can figure something out.

3:02 PM  
Blogger Meow said...

You can pick your friends, but not your family ... isn't it a shame, sometimes !!
Take care, Kylee ... Meow

11:57 PM  
Blogger Kylee said...

Thanks everyone. This too shall pass...and I will find ways to get out...I have 5 weeks coming up where all I will have is time...

7:18 PM  

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